if its your time, its your time

enough of all these deaths i'm hearing. i cannot recall how many times i've said to pause for a minute or two to pray for the souls of people dying because of some unfortunate incident.

the air france flight 447 disaster is unimaginable. 228 passengers. they can't even find them. =(

my knees weaken everytime i read the news. atlantic ocean. 7,000 meters underwater. storms. bad weather. rescue team. air force. black box. all these are giving me a massive headache, or maybe later on a heart attack.

i cannot imagine how the families of the passengers cope up with the loss. they need a huge amount of strength and grace of acceptance to get through this.

once again, let us pray for all the people involve in air france flight 447. this time is very, very difficult for them, you can't even imagine.

see, this is one thing i cannot accept just yet. death. its painful. its reality. its inevitable. but like i said, if its your time, its your time. but i am still praying. this is a serious issue i have been battling all by myself and it drives me crazy. i've had this personal issue since high school. and i don't know where its coming from. i have spoken to my spiritual director, a Jesuit, about this for like one million times. but i am too weak to accept death. that is why all my prayers end with gratitude. "Lord, thank you for keeping everyone safe today. And i hope you don't take anyone close to my heart away from me permanently tomorrow or the next days until im strong enough to accept death."

Prayer for the Dead

God our Father,
Your power brings us to birth,
Your providence guides our lives,
and by Your command we return to dust.

Lord, those who die still live in Your presence,
their lives change but do not end.
I pray in hope for my family,
relatives and friends,
and for all the dead known to You alone.

In company with Christ,
Who died and now lives,
may they rejoice in Your kingdom,
where all our tears are wiped away.
Unite us together again in one family,
to sing Your praise forever and ever.

Amen.