the plant

i am off on monday and tuesday next week. i'm thinking of hitting the beach for two days but if its sentosa i'm talking about then i'd rather forget about it.

so i'm buying THE plant on monday or tuesday. i need mapet and karen with me, i need their moral support. these girls are as good as plants, except that they need more attention and time and love so they should be able to help me pick out the perfect plant.

i'm already thinking a nice name of the plant. hmmm....

this whole plant thing is becoming an obsession. i've googled so much on what best house plant i should buy. i haven't decided yet and i would only know once i see the plant. oue suggested i get a cactus, i can just put it in a pot and leave there for weeks. getting a cactus will defeat my purpose of taking care of a plant.

okay, i think i am this close to going crazy.

i am feeling better lately, medically speaking. i've taken all my medicines religiously. i still can't take solid food though. at work, the thai and western chefs take turn in cooking my staff meal. they had fried chicken earlier, i took about five cutlets but my boss stopped me from eating it cuz i am still not allowed to take solid food. i don't know what kind of gastro flu shit i have, they said all i can eat is porridge, lugaw, conggee, or whatever you call it, basta sabaw! but not tonight, i am currently eating coco crunch and milk he picked up for me from mustafa (the amazing 24 hour indian department store!) coco crunch is definitely not in my so-called 'soft diet' food list.

i am not feeling any better emotionally. i am still a wreck cuz i allowed myself to become one. especially these past few days where i feel like i'm the shittiest lousiest person alive. i need guidance, a whole lot of it. i was actually looking for a therapist or life coach here. i met one and she's at 180 sgd per session, each session is at 2 hours, succeeding hour is at 50 sgd. 180 sgd can bring me to the closest indonesian island. so, i don't know. although this time i know i have to set my priorities straight. time is not gold, but it is running.

brian is leaving for manila tomorrow. i feel sad for not being able to see him before he leaves. okay i did, last week when he cooked dinner for me. anyway, have a safe trip bri and always be good, ok?

oue is sleeping. i think i'm gonna sleep now too. i'm so exhausted. i have so many things in my mind.