i like to move it move it. NOT!!!!

my move to cdo then to singapore was so emotionally, physically, mentally and logistically stressful so i thought i had enough. ay bolsyet, now, i've moved house again and technically homeless. next week, i'm moving house again. i hope it will be the last until i moved to my husband's house! shit talaga! ang hassle mag lipat ng bahay. oh, i don't think i even have the right to say that now since oue did all the moving for me. i feel guilty and sad. guilty because i had to work on our supposed to be 'last day' in the village (jurong) and guilty because like i said, oue had to move 6 huge boxes, 2 mattresses, pillows, hampers and four luggages all by himself to semei which is about an hour away from the village.

i should be depressed at this moment. well i am because i loved that mansionette in jurong. it's a big beautiful house and it's full of happy mahjongera laughters. (and of course, some tears as well!) and i had cooked good pastas there! but you know what, i am not in my depressed depressed mode, like the drama queen sadness kind of depression. i want to cry, as in gxs-kamagong-bom days cry. i want to break down as in my "last" day in manila drama. i just want to let this all out: the sadness, heart break, disappointment, excitement, grief, misery, everything. the drama. the tears. hahahahaha!

but with my work schedule, i do not have the right to be depressed, get sick or be tired.

so yes, i wasn't there last sunday. i finished packing up my things saturday night sunday morning at about 3AM and i had to wake up at 7am to bring bom and his things to his friend's house in bukit timah then i had to work at 10. for the first time in years, we're in the same city but different homes. well, except when we're on holiday in cdo, but that's different cuz we're with our own families. i find our set-up now so, um, unusual.

anyway, i can't write much about the day we moved because i was being totally useless. i'm just thankful krysse and her new blog are making up for my absence.

her entry "so long taman jurong" is so sad. =( the only thing i'm glad about is that i didn't see our beautiful house so empty like that. the scene emptiness would've broken me down.

so where am i now?

homeless, yes. but like i always say, home is where my toothbrush is.

so, home right now is semei, at brian's house. thank you brian and shaz for welcoming me and oue. =)