ang aking ina (popularly known as Edna)
if i do a search on "mother superior" on my own blog, i cannot count by my hands of how many times i mentioned my own beloved mother in my blog.
and even if i'm to describe her over and over again in my blog, on her birthday, mother's day, when i miss her, when i fight with her, when she reprimands me, when she's sad, when she shares her love life, she is just beyond words. she has flaws, of course, but she is just perfect to me. (next are my high school friends, amid their retardedness and brattiness, they're all perfect to me.) or should i say, perfect FOR me.
i am the mother superior's daughter. i am who i am because of her. (okay, my influences are not entirely from her and she may not have the last word when i decide on something) but as early as now i can tell i am going to be like her, a good, not-so-perfect, considerate, lenient, strong, emotional, spiritual, stage mother. (and even bom can strongly attest to this and he has to remind me again and again!)
when i was younger she would always tells me, "i don't want you to be like me who would marry at a very young age." and she just didn't tell me that, she prayed for it. hard. she wanted me to marry after 19. maybe 20 is ok, but not 19. i think the heavens must've heard her loud and clear. now at 25 (turning 26 in three weeks), there is no decent man whom i can see my future with. i spoke to her this morning and told her i am turning 26 soon and i'm scared. she didn't say anything except for "i want to have grandchildren already!" hay, easy for her to say! haha!
mother superior is turning 51 this year and she is beautifully ageing. you can see the lines on her forehead already, these lines are a visible proof of her loneliness and happiness. these lines were developed over the years of pain, loss, laughter, and bliss. and among these lines is a beautiful face (and behind it is a beautiful mind as well).
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