what can you do for love?

today is my day!!!!!!

no calls or sms upon waking up! or should i say no sms or calls woke me up today! well it was a decision i made last night so i turned off my phone just before i closed my eyes to sleep. i had a good long disrupted sleep until 10:30am! wait, i actually woke up at ten and i was half-asleep half-awake when i turned on my phone. i couldn't help it, my boss must've been trying to reach me. true enough, i had two voice messages from Her, one from alfee, a couple of sms from my mother and this certain magazine, and a call from oue reminding me to go to the bank to change our mailing address. today i am not answering calls related to work, but She is an exception. i just cannot not answer her calls. bottomline, no call woke me up today!

i hate heavy rains. i curse singapore weather when it rains. but today, i'm in my pink jacket and sweat pants and savouring the cold breeze and cuddling myslef (oh that didn't sound right! haha! but you know what i mean, when its cold and you have a nice big warm blanket over you, you curl up like a fetus and make yourself feel warm. okay stop that didn't sound right again! haha!)

i have things to do today. personal things i have neglected because i'm just too busy or lazy to do it. one is to arrange shoes in the shoe rack. two, my laundry. three, cooking lunch for myself (bacon, eggs, and chorizo!!! aah! so good!) four, clean my room. and five, clean the house if i have enough time in the afternoon. (enough time cuz i need to work on our wine list! see i am still working even if i'm off, but no complains. =p ) six, hmmm, make myself a nice coke float with chocolate ice cream. and oh shit, seven, go to the bank to change mailing address. i thought the coke float is the culminating event and my day off treat to myself. =)

i'm home alone today and i hardly do things alone. i cannot live a solitary life but i'm living on one today. just for today and i like it. (the "solitary life" i got from claire cuz apparently the girl loves it although she says she's bored but she seems to be enjoying her new life in kamagong.) so yeah, i will cook lunch and eat alone. im glad tuni's keeping me company on ym kahit ginagago niya ako. hehe!

i think today is one of those days that i think about myself, just myself and no one is involve in it. i wanted to put on music but i decided to settle with the sound of the rain, thunder and the chirping birds. from the sound of their chirp, seems like they're pretty pissed off at the rain. haha! i am t**** (tuni, you know the word! haha!) but i feel relaxed and peaceful. not so happy but contented. my life has been on a fast rollercoaster ride and it got me so dizzy. today i'd like to pause and slow things down. just for one single day.

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i realize i used the word tired a lot. and i mean alot. i am so tired that i don't even notice myself saying it like its part of every sentence.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Rona, are you tired?


Thursday, March 13, 2008 - i am unbelievably busy and extremely tired
Sunday, March 02, 2008 - drained. exhausted. tired. dying.
Friday, February 15, 2008 - i am so tired because i work at least 12 hours a day
Saturday, January 19, 2008 - i am tired but i don't want to miss a thing at work.
Thursday, January 03, 2008 - i was so tired i had to sit with them and drink too.
Monday, December 31, 2007 - Its 3am and im dead tired.
Sunday, December 30, 2007 - i a super tired and i have to sleep cuz today might be my last day off until chinese new year.
Thursday, December 27, 2007 - I shouldnt be doing this cuz i am drained, exhausted and emotionally tired today.
Monday, December 24, 2007 - ...because if there's a more superlative form than "very tired" that would be the title of this entry.
- the tired-ness is going to be thrice as much as i'm feeling right now.
Saturday, December 08, 2007 - it was so funny even if everyone's tired and wanting to go home we still had the energy to enjoy the market list review!
Friday, December 07, 2007 - today i worked for almost 14 hours and i am tired, but happy tired.
- i am excited to get tired because this 'tired-ness' has a slight hint of fulfillment and it makes me happy. =)


so tell me, are you tired?

SOURCE: http://ronarons.blogspot.com/

Blogged by Anthony Scott

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okay, maiba naman tayo. like the title says "what can you do for love?" the entry title is inspired by krysse and mimi. the girls made a list of the stupid things a girl can do for love and obviously these things are based on their personal experiences (and their friends whom i know very well and heard the story firsthand. can i mention names? claire and karen, hi!!!!) i told them i'm making my own list too but i'm having a hard time putting up one because everytime i try to recall and attempt to write one incident, i'd always counter myself "yeah, it may be stupid now but it sure didn't sound stupid that time." shit, i was blinded. haha! =) hay, the things you do. now i narrowed down everything to just one and i believe this is the bottomline of it all.

the crazy thing you do for love:

1. make yourself believe that he loves you.

that alone makes you do stupid things. its either you give so much effort (pangkabuhayan showcase included) and you expect he does the same (not necessarily a pangkabuhayan showcase); or you don't exert so much effort but you still expect something from him. after all your circus acts and if everything else fails, you then opt to believe he loves you and you know deep down something is not right. and that's it, that's where you try so hard and do stupid things. and a few years later, you will laugh at yourself and say "ewww, yuck! shit on him! that lucky, lucky bastard!"

i'm telling you, there is no human relationship that does not have demands and expectations.

ps.
ewww, yuck! shit on them! those lucky, lucky bastsards!!!! ahahahha ang dami pala e noh? shit!

ps2.
after all is being said and done, i think it's my time to stop believing. i get tired too, you know.