missing bruno =(

Vanilla Twilight (Owl City)

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

5 things

1. mother superior's married. and it annoys me to death when she speaks of "her husband." and not refering jerry as, well, jerry. haha! but i'm so happy for her. it is our family's dream to see her walk down the aisle. that dream that we all prayed so hard for, including my friends, came to reality and its just magical. its a fairytale ending that i'd like to experience one of these days and mother superior's words to me was "its worth the wait."

2. im in a very very serious state of trying to lose weight. i have been jogging for the last few weeks. i sold my soul to gym membership two months back. and im not eating any junk food anymore. and rice, yes, that two cups of rice!!!! okay fine, i still do but i try to minimize. i'm trying to hit my target weight by march. please pray for my soul's safety. haha!

3. bruno is on a business trip to jakarta for a month. and i miss him everyday.

4. i lost all my phone contacts which was really dumb cuz i did a phone back up EXCEPT for the contacts before reformatting it. all photos and videos are safe--thank God--but my contacts are all gone. so guys, if you feel like keeping in touch, please email me your numbers. ronarons at yahoo dot com.

4. being carefree, direction-less and not caring about the world are taking its toll on me now. i am desperate of finding what i really want to do for the rest of my life. all the jobs i've taken up are mostly "temporary" to me, "until i find something interesting enough for me to stay for good." i'd always say. i was free and up for the experience and just do whatever i'd want to do. this time, its time to get serious. its time to do real business, not the monkey one. every job i've been through seems to be just a place for me to pass time and wait for the world to end without even accomplishing anything remarkable. i mean, yes, i know i've had the time of my life, too much of it actually--the circus, chaos, cheap thrill, excitement and everything random. now its time to plan my life and find its meaning.

5. its almost december and the wind's getting colder each day. its nice to feel the december breeze, it reminds me so much of home. i miss spending christmas at home. but singapore is home for now. i have three of my girls here, claire, karen and mapet and they're all i need to make me feel like i'm not very far from home.

there is nothing much to say here, really. as i'm getting old my life doesn't have enough action and funny stories to share. but life's good so far. its good surprisingly good. =)

take care everyone. be safe if you guys are in manila. you are all in my prayers.

naked and sacred by maria nyler

what does love need
can love last
i ask myslef these questions
haunted by the past
i walk these city streets
i've known the vitories and defeat
searching hoping just barely coping
baby i wanna be good for you
i wanna be true
don't know how to live with myself
if i ever hurt you


this song reminds me of 2004....

congratulations to my mother

finally!

the new post interface is back! i don't know what happened to blogger for the last few weeks. weird.

okay. updates.

mother superior's wedding preparation is at its peak. it's unbelievable how i'm becoming like i have OCD. i am telling you, going through her guest list alone in excel sheet takes me 2 hours to "update." in the sheet, there's 5 columns: guests, reserved seats, invitation sent: yes or no, responded: yes or no, table # and accomodation.

example:

Rona Lipke 1 YES YES Table 3 House 1


and there's 130+ of them to figure out. this is driving me crazy. i find this the easiest way to do because its microsoft excel for crying out loud! and excel sheets can do the math for me. and i see this as one whole math project so yea its quite a challenge but going over it again and again makes my life a bit easier.

bruno is back from his business trip! indefinitely! haha! he arrived last tuesday morning. and i feel so bad for having this very very bad habit of being late when fetching someone from the airport. yes, you guessed it right, it always end up that the arrivee (haha is there such a term?) waits for the fetchee (?) and not in the other way around. hahaha! but i'm glad i didn't keep bruno waiting for me for so long. oh god, i'm so happy to see him! such a handsome tattooed eye-candy! haha! he was supposed to fly off to jakarta this week but things are put on hold in his project so he's staying in singapore for now.

karen's off to bangkok. two weeks ago she was in bali. the woman can't stay put!!! but this bangkok trip is for a dragon boat competition. my beautiful boys oue and jc are there to support karen (i am not very convinced with my own statement!). i hope karen does well there and i hope she comes home safely. and as for the two boys, i just hope they come home in one piece! goodluck ladies!!!! enjoy bangkok and keep on sawadeekap-ing!!!! hahahaha!!!

what else? what else?

oh ya. my team china of three women is stronger now. one can say 'fuck' to our senior, which is good, at least no one would her. the other one is now learning to answer me and my manager back. one day she's going to file a restraining order or harrassment case against me. she keeps on saying "anduh" for the word "and." i told her "one more anduh and i will slap your face." i don't think i'm in my sane mind right now. well, not on any moment i guess. oh good lord. but i like these girls. hardworking, fast and eager. no politics, no issues, no special requests (haha, i know i should be guilty of all of the above!) 3 months and they will learn to speak english in no time, maybe they can speak black american too. wassap ya'll!!! hahahahaha!!!! they're improving ya. especially with my colleague "lalat" (malay world of langaw) teaches them very important things in life and asking the girls: "are you still a virgin? you know virgin? oh you don't know virgin" and if she gets a no, she draws things. you know, things. hahahah!!! god, my workplace is such one big comedy circus! but seriously man, they're improving pretty fast! and its not as frustrating as it was before (especially when i heard one say "kyu mi" which means "excuse me!")

okay, time to sleep. thanks for the time everyone. as usual. sometimes you know i hope i touch people's lives through my entries but when i go through them one more time, i'd be like. who on earth would waste their time reading my stupid and nonsense rants? but then, who knows.

shocks! enough already! goodnight everyone! kiss kiss! =)

HALT.

i won't be publishing entries for the next few weeks because i will be very very busy.

1. the brother's coming over to singapore to watch the f1 race.
2. bruno's few days stay before he leaves again for jakarta for two weeks.
3. mother superior's last minute wedding preparations.
4. my team china training. we have three newhires from china that need intense english training so yeah, don't ask.
5. my life-changing decision.

this blog's becoming so robotic anyway. listing 5 things with no story telling, no swear words, no major drama is no good. i guess its time to put my blog to rest. after five long years of abuse from the writer, i will give it a month's worth of days off.

i will be back. with vengeance. haha!

take care everyone! kiss kiss! =D

5 things i learned about 5 years of blogging

1. posting photos of people from work is eventually gonna get you in trouble.
2. posting names of people from work will get you in trouble.
3. posting events will get you in trouble with people you didn't invite to that event.
4. posting events will get you in trouble with your family.
5. posting events will get into other people's gossip headlines.

and last but not the least, this blog thing just keeps me both sane and insane... but mostly insane!

my first post:

Monday, September 06, 2004

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test blog....
hehehehe... funny....

XOXO Ronarons™ at 1:20:00 PM 0
cuddles

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY RONARONS DOT BLOGSPOT DOT COM!
its been 5 years and you're doing just fine! =) cheers to good, beautiful, funny, interesting, amazing, crazy life! =)

cinderella on ice

i just watched cinderella on ice (by imperial ice stars) at esplanade theatre with 9 beautiful little girls in princesses costumes. i am telling you, watching over 9 kids was not easy even though i had 3 more adults with me. each one of them had their own concerns in life: "i'm hungry." "where's mommy?" "who is that?" "i wanna pee pee." "i wanna sit beside someone else." "i'm sleepy." "i'm bored." "i'm thirsty." "what's your name?" "is it finished?" and the questions went on forever.

i could tell all eyes were on us. we were the only bunch whose kids were in princess costumes. it was a riot. and it was sooooooo much fun. and i was very touched when one girl in sleeping beauty outfit fell asleep in my arms. i can actually do it! i can actually hold a child! hahaha!

the show has another life by itself. it was beautiful. amazing. spectacular. the dance, the acts, the moves, the music, the costumes, the lights, everything was beautiful!

and we met olga, the ice skater who played cinderella! she's only 24 years old, a very talented young woman! and she's the sweetest! it didn't feel like i was meeting a human ice skater, it felt like we were actually meeting a disney cartoon character (in ice skates!) she's very soft-spoken, sweet, graceful, regal and very princess-like. i loved her in an instant. i was this close to hugging her and having my own picturial with her but i actually got hold of myself , acted cool and like an adult and tried my best to keep my composure as long as i could! haha! (deep inside, the child in me was jumping with joy!)

i'd have to say this is one of the best days of my life. i had so much fun and i'm very amazed how strangers can work out with each other just by e-mail and that they can make a child's wish come true. i am very very thankful to those who helped and gave their support for my wish child. it was truly magical for me and my little girl.

i will be posting photos privately, soon. =)

God bless Make A Wish Foundation Singapore!

gah

so i finally removed my 101 things to do in 1,001 days.

after a year of putting it up there, it made no sense at all. so i finally took it down because its stupid. i didn't even bother copying it to a notepad and at least keep it for future reference. what a waste of time.

one day at a time, my Lord.

tomorrow's a good day, i pray.

5 things i want to do but i couldn''t

1. scream at someone who is very dumb and to the people who don't deserve my respect.
2. throw things within my reach to people i hate.
3. eat in the stupid bus.
4. jaywalk. i just wanna fucking jaywalk and not wait for green lights and walk over that stupid zebra paint on the streets.
5. smoke just about anywhere!

the last two days have been very bad. i hope tomorrow's a better day.

goodnight everyone! =)


i hate it when everything's in order, too proper, too law-abiding attitude. i hate it. maybe because my life's been a good chaos and i miss it.

at 4am i should be sleeping. but, no. at 4am, i have random thoughts. and yes, its 5 of them.

bored at 2am, i randomly browsed through my facebook friends. i rarely do this because i hate seeing successful and failing people. bitterness, envy and joy all in one is not good. it is a perfect recipe for my undying question: what am i doing with my life? comparison definitely won't help in any way. soooo, this randomness brought me to my university friend's page. richard. and he's married. happily married. back in the early days of university i was very close with only three people who i was majoring with: tessa, anj, dina and richard. oh wait, dina was economics and anj was philosophy. it was heaven's plan to gather us in one block. so yes, there were 4 of us trying to figure out and fight our way through college with alcohol and ecstasy. haha! just kidding! that was 2000. shortcut to 2009. dina, tessa, anj and richard are all married. what do i say now? i am the last 'single' standing. matira matibay. the great old maid. oh god, no! i am not rushing to get married. i'm just so envious of the beautiful photos people's weddings. fine, i am defeated by my own defense (and pretense). "i will never get married." now that i'm 27, i seriously do not want to die alone. i'd like to have one husband, please. take away. and i want it him warm. but good lord, a husband is not a chinese takeaway. i cannot just tell the man i'm dating, "oh hi, good evening. nice suit. thanks for the dinner. would you like to marry me?" i am not in the marrying stage but i can tell already that it is not as easy as ordering mcdelivery.

but Lord, i am praying. i do not want to end up ordering mcdelivery alone. at 50 years old!

and angeli, you have got to stop calling me old maid!

maybe i'd adopt an african child.

oh, sorry. that's not funny.

have u seen bruno? no, not my bruno. the borat movie bruno. its so much fun and, um, annoying at the same time. it tried too hard its not funny anymore.

4:15 am. what is wrong with me????

mother superior's wedding. or should i say my wedding. the manager of the venue must've gone crazy already. i emailed her a complete jpg and powerpoint presentation of how i want the ceremony and reception seating/table arrangement to be. details of how the service staff should serve drinks and food are now on a 3-page single spaced font 10 word document. and there are 38 "things to do." i am very sure by now my own mother is regretting handing all these into my hands. i told her i might not have a decent wedding so i might as well put so much effort in this like its mine. and yes, a wedding dress for myself won't hurt.

another thing is mama mors. my nanny of more than 10 years. mother superior and her sibling's nanny. all of my cousin's nanny. she is coming home for the wedding. she is the mother of all mothers. she's the one everyone's waiting to come home. i haven't seen her for the last 4 or 5 years because she's very busy spending her husband's money in some casino in australia. everyone in the family has already accepted, mama mors has only one favorite: and that's my 20 year old cousin benson. no one touches benson, otherwise you will have to face mama mors' dramatic tears. "wag na wag nyong anuhin si benson!" were her last words before she left for her married life. (what on earth is "anuhin" mama mors?) and she made sure her favoritism of benson is sent across the entire family clan clearly. anyway, she was officially an old maid because of us, her alagas. was. and due to last minute change of mind, she got married. i see myself in mama mors already. oh god. not again. i'm so excited to see her. everyone will have to find ways to sleep beside her. this time i will find my way to mama mors' bedside, even if it takes me to "ano" benson! hahahaha!!!! haaaay mama mors, i love you soooo much!

i was gonna say something about our newhired waitresses from china. i was training the other one to do food running. and it was a disaster in its highest form. i want to kill myself.

my novena for this week: patience. Lord, grant me the patience.

i guess i was sleeping when the Lord showered patience upon the universe.

okay, 4:31 says the clock. time to sleep now.

goodnight boys and girls. and always remember to thank the Lord for your life, good or bad, you are still alive and breathing and enjoying His creations on earth, yes, including that little mosquito that bit you last night.

and one last thing, whoever hurts my brother one more time will have to endure my trash talking. trust me on that.

LASTLY, i have no respect to people who go to church and do not practice what they preach. i am not perfect and some days i am one of them and i do hate and disrespect myself for that. but these very active church people are sickening. disgusting. and an embarrassment to human kind. just please stop.

that's all.